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Post by topagae on Feb 27, 2007 4:39:12 GMT -5
Topagae took in the story and replied. He could definitely help her since that old king seems to be involved, but she didn't know if he should. He certainly didn't want to be helping a demon reclaim her power to kill everything she sees.
"You didn't answer any of my questions. Are you happy? What will getting your memories do for you? Do you even know or care about what your purpose was? Are you trying to get your powers back? Or is this all just for revenge against those that took your parent away? I can't help somebody who goes looking for something that they really don't know why they're looking for it."
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Post by Yumei on Feb 27, 2007 4:46:43 GMT -5
Aeirn was overwhelmed. Too many questions... I'm incapable to answer them all. Oh well, I'll try. Aeirn thought to herself. She sighed.
"Why would I be happy right this moment, living an existance ignorant of my origins? Attaining my memories is of utmost importance to me. Not knowing how I lived my 63000 years of previous existence is a rather big blow to me. I can understand from my colleagues who knew me in my previous life that I had lived quite a good life, and I'm curious to know it..." Aeirn started. She looked down at the ground, a psychological effect that would be evident that she was nervous and upset.
"That may seem shallow, but there's more to it than that. I had sworn fealty knowing that I would be having to pay off that debt I owe. Without this to drive me on forward, I don't know if I could continue living... Or whether I serve a true purpose in my long-lasting life... I don't know, really. I don't know anymore..."
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Post by topagae on Feb 27, 2007 4:49:17 GMT -5
Topagae could tell that like many who have lost things. They don't often thing too much as to why they want it, but something inside them yearns to have it back. "My lady, before you go out seeking answers. You need to come to terms with these questions as well. I can tell it's important to you, but you need to ask why. I'll help if I can, but even if you found your answers. If you're not prepared to even understand them, you cannot expect them to help you very much."
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Post by Yumei on Feb 27, 2007 4:53:08 GMT -5
"Indeed, you are correct... But it is as such that I believe myself to be lost in this world... a wandering existence who simply lives on to gain what they want..." Aeirn said. She was shaking. She chuckled slightly. "How... ironic. How so, bitterly, deliciously ironic... A human telling me this," Aeirn said, chuckling again. "You're a smart one. You're absolutely right... And yet, in knowing this, I find it difficult to do so. A lot has happened to me even after I was unsealed... and living within a cave of dangerous monsters is not... exactly the idea of fun people who've tried to help me before had in mind." Aeirn looked up again. "A reason... you understand, right? People in this world... they thirst for what they want, but justification... their inner judgment, deems it hard to come up. That's just how it is..."
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Post by topagae on Feb 27, 2007 4:57:55 GMT -5
The woman was visibly shaken. It was quite obvious this woman had never gotten a human perspective on anything. Maybe he could help after all.
"People travel the world to find what they want and return home to find it. And of course I also have no idea why you're living in a cave full of dangerous monsters, I would heartily suggest if it bothers you to find other living arrangements. As to your answers. I got plenty of time. Ask your questions, though I can't guarantee I have an answer. And at the end, I'll tell you all I know about your problem. If you still want to hear it. I suggest you start with why you want these things."
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Post by Yumei on Feb 27, 2007 5:02:05 GMT -5
Aeirn found it rather enlightening, yet at the same time slightly embarrassing, to be receiving life insights from a human. Aeirn was allured by this intellect, yet at the same time fearful of it. It was natural of her, after all, to be exposed to such a changed environment, as back then, the Netherworld was barren of civilization.
"I've tried... but... It's difficult. Anyway..." Aeirn said, changing the subject. She had her own reasons for staying in the Cave of Ordeals (namely, to use the Chamber of the Demonic Mirror as his sanctuary, as that was the place she was sealed in). "...Quite a lot of questions have been circulating in my mind, to be quite honest and blunt with you. However, they are mainly irrelevant. I won't bother you with those. I do, however, request this, if you can answer it - have you any knowledge of the Chou Maou?"
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Post by topagae on Feb 27, 2007 5:04:52 GMT -5
"Nope. I've been alive roughly four years, so I doubt I've heard much of what is now ancient history. I do however have some leads about your memories. Since you seem to want to think about the why's and how's of your situation on your own time, that's ok, this stuff usually comes in time."
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Post by Yumei on Feb 27, 2007 5:07:16 GMT -5
"I see... I do, however, request you of your sources. I do not wish anyone to be spreading falsehoods about myself," Aeirn said. "Since you seem to have leads on the subject of my memories... I want to think about that and see if I can assert reliability. It will be a difficult task for me, but I'll be able to manage... I think..."
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Post by topagae on Feb 27, 2007 5:09:47 GMT -5
Topagae chuckled again.
"Lucky for you I have the most reliable source imaginable. Me. Some of the details of my "birth" are pertinent to your situation. But before I do that, I'll ask you one more time. Why? Why do your pursue your memories? Are you not happy? What motivates you? And how do you know your memories are worthwhile?"
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Post by Yumei on Feb 27, 2007 5:23:28 GMT -5
Aeirn sighed. A single time. Perhaps this was the only chance, but in any case, her spontaneous thinking would surely kick in, but, these feelings of rage, of desire, of the want to see what she really was... It really drove her to move on. Aeirn felt that she could confidently answer the conundrum which Topagae had posed in front of her quite blatantly, though presumably which much thought.
"I see..." Aeirn said. "In any case, it has been known throughout my life that I was born and then founded by the Chou Maou. But... in that respect, the letter which I had received only explained my origins. Not who I was, nor how or why I have this power bestowed in my eyes..." Aeirn continued, resolute. "I want to know who I am. Why I have this power, and not some other demon or person out there!" she said, now with a bolder voice.
"This sudden, spontaneous epiphany, this cacophony constantly ringing in my mind, telling me, to drive on forward, to find the answers to my own existence, my own composition, to find out what's behind the very fibers of my body!" Aeirn continued on. "In an ultimatum and a nutshell, I want to find out WHO I am, WHY I am the way I am, and HOW I am the way I am. Collecting my fragmented memories are only just part of the jigsaw puzzle that encompasses what little I know about myself, a walking enigma of danger and stigma..."
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