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Jan 31, 2008 22:43:27 GMT -5
Post by Minamoto Yukichii on Jan 31, 2008 22:43:27 GMT -5
I hate the house I live in sometimes.
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Feb 1, 2008 12:20:43 GMT -5
Post by WAR on Feb 1, 2008 12:20:43 GMT -5
Don't we all, though? It's just a fact of life. You can and will end up hating where you are now and then.
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Feb 1, 2008 12:24:56 GMT -5
Post by Machina on Feb 1, 2008 12:24:56 GMT -5
This is very true. I currently sort of hate the fact that I am in love with someone who is totally well, probably not trustworthy. He is impulsive and on drugs, constantly changing his mind and telling a zillion girls he loves them. The only thing is, he doesn't act the same with me. He doesn't just say I love you come here and act pushy. He warns me that he's bad, what he does, everything he does, thinks, wants, it's all out in the open. I don't know if that's because he thinks I'll put up with him or if he really does care and is honestly afraid of things going wrong.. He told another girl he loved her too, and he used to tell her everything he did, etc; but he said not anymore because he wanted ot try to be with her but he decided that shes an idiot and he can never love her... I want to believe it. All of it, but I keep all that in mind so that if it does turn out to be a load of shit.. it won't be so bad. I saw it coming.
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Feb 1, 2008 17:14:35 GMT -5
Post by WAR on Feb 1, 2008 17:14:35 GMT -5
Ouch, that sounds like a pretty rocky road, huh? I sympathize. Although personally, I don't forsee this ending too well...
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Feb 1, 2008 21:06:48 GMT -5
Post by boogieknight on Feb 1, 2008 21:06:48 GMT -5
I don't mess around with drugs, but plenty of my relatives have. Drug use boils down to too categories: casual users and addicts. Casual users just do it for recreation, as ill-advised as that may be. Addicts, on the other hand, are generally self-medicating some emotional pain. They're not lost causes, but they have to want to get their act together.
Could be that he's genuinely concerned, could also be that's he playing up the suffering artist. I'd say be on your guard, he sounds like he's bright and skilled at pulling the heartstrings. However, I fear that he's selfish and doesn't care too much about the feelings of others. Be careful.
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Feb 4, 2008 23:56:02 GMT -5
Post by Machina on Feb 4, 2008 23:56:02 GMT -5
Mm, well he is back on his medication now. He told the other girl he does not want to be with her, it will not work. They are too alike and will only become vain and bored with one another. He loves her and always will, but he told me not in that way. He also stated me as a reason he can not be with her. I have the chat transcript, mind you I never met either of these people face to face. Har har.... But um.. he decided that he and I should only be friends as well, because he fears I will NEVER trust him again and he is in no state to have a relationship, which is true; but at the same time it may be another plot to have us both at his whim without having to commit. But we have discussed the possibility of his feelings being merely a manifestation of his mind due to lack of medication and emotional instability. He got upset with me last night for the same reason, I told him I did not understand my own logic pertaining to him and I make no sense without my own medication. He fears the same, that my feelings are superficial due to lack of medication and that I only latch onto him because of it. But, he said give him a few more days to settle and figure out of his feelings are real or not, for now we are sticking to the ever famous 'friends with benefits' scenario. Whom else he has that going with, no idea; but there is no commitment so I don't have to only see him either I suppose. >_>'
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Feb 5, 2008 1:31:48 GMT -5
Post by dauskunai89 on Feb 5, 2008 1:31:48 GMT -5
This is some story... you can be an actress...
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Feb 5, 2008 3:59:28 GMT -5
Post by Machina on Feb 5, 2008 3:59:28 GMT -5
It takes a lot more than a lot of experience with real life drama to become an actress...
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Feb 5, 2008 21:50:37 GMT -5
Post by boogieknight on Feb 5, 2008 21:50:37 GMT -5
Making a connection with others can always be a challenge, in general we have a great many defenses (or obstructions) that get in the way. Drugs or no drugs. Hope that things work out in the end.
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Feb 7, 2008 5:07:39 GMT -5
Post by Machina on Feb 7, 2008 5:07:39 GMT -5
Things are looking up! There is a girl, not one that I like much, but a girl who lives a mere 90 miles or so from myself and is offering to house the one I love until he can get on his feet. She is even prepared to help him get a job at her workplace. It's not the ideal situation, but it is, as he says, the best that either of us could hope for at the current time. We can see one another on a weekly basis, while at the same time working to save up some money so that we can get a place together. But since we won't exactly be able to live together at first, that will also give us some time to get used to each other and see if this will really work out. Ahaaa. I'm quite happy with this turn of events! I surely hope it all fairs well.
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